Tangled Hearts

There comes a point in time when you realized that life is meaningless. You can’t choose the people you love just because society is a piece-of-shit-that-you-never-see-the-end-of-judgments.

I, for one - realized that things starting to get shit and hurtful when there seem to be unending expectation from your surroundings, being snapped out of the dream of finding “my person.” The sad truth is - I’ve been told that love is just bullshit. Love equals to finding a business partner cause love doesn’t exist in reality. It’s the sad truth, it’s the struggle that I’m facing and feeling and that makes me want to shut everything down, again.

My desire out of this world is to move away, pack my bags and leave this world of cruelty. Never coming back, and just live my life as it is. I just want to move away, move away out of this messy world filled with idiots. Where love is forced out of you when you’re not even interested with some guy.

I don’t blame God for His plan for me, it’s more like… I’m asking Him a question of why do I have to feel this way since 2018. Keeping making the same mistakes and never met the right, person - only to be hit with a shit truth of being told that love is not truth, when all I ever believed is being in love means being comfortable, being at home - yet, there’s no Home in the world because love does not exist.

Is it true? All the things that I believe in being snap away out of the reality. And here I am again - shutting my feelings off for eternity, and even after that.