Fairness.

Tonight I’ve been thinking about fairness. Is it fair for us to feel comfortable in our past life?

The snow keeps on falling and the voice in the back of my head keeps on appearing. The new year is coming, can you reflect on the things that you’ve achieved compared to the year before? Have you made your parents / other people or yourself, proud?

Some kind of a downhill growth that you know you have to face. Thought it would be fine but turns out you’re just surviving. Now, all my words are jumbled into one place, one spot, unable to face the truth. When is the right time? When will be the right time? What kind of progress are you looking at?

I looked and tried to find the signs, but it’s long gone. You put so many questions in life - unknown feelings. Trapped in a complicated cycle of paranoia that keep on coming back for more.

And then this other tiny voice inside of my head keep on reminding me to move forward, just like Anna from Frozen said,

You are lost, hope is gone.

But you must go on.

And do the next right thing.

This journey it ain’t easy. Confidence, please be ready to take over - because I need you the most. Uncertainty please don’t let it consume me - because you’ll be overthinking and go back to the same path all over again.

Take one step at a time. As I tell myself everyday: slowly, but sure.