Here We Are Again.

As I walk through the day, I was lost in translations unable to speak into words. I was speechless when I saw you there again, with your friends after five whole months. It hit me how we both bottled up our feelings and not let it show until the time I talked to you. It wasn’t okay when I wanted to not give up but you do. Down the rabbit hole again, I fell. Once in a lifetime, I feel this way and you’re the person that I think about.

We made plans to run away from reality, to build up our future, to be there through thick and thin just like Lany implied. Everything changed just because of one small mistake and words that I said out loud. For being too vulnerable and let you in completely through the things I have been through. And turns out a piece of me is gone once you said to let us go.

The story that we created, thought we would start a new chapter but the book’s closed. I have my issues, and it wasn’t resolved until I met you. But now I know, I have to learn to keep on moving forward without looking at the past & wondering the ‘what ifs.’ And the only way to do this is “to tell myself that you’re not coming back”

Hitting rock bottom is never been easier, but it’s what keeps us human: Pain. We have to go through certain things before we find our breakthrough. And we know, we always have that one person who we know it’s our “Soulmate” but the universe thinks otherwise. And the only word I can tell myself is,

“Maybe in the next life, we’ll meet again.”

Maybe we are not meant to be and time will indeed tell. I wished a lot of things but it’s just drowning me more, into the place where I can barely breathe.

Life goes on, and it’s time to take a deep breath and exhale fully and stop hoping that you’ll change your mind.