Chapter 1.365.
It’s not about the celebration, it’s not about the year - we are just closing another book of our lives of 2020. For now - we are starting a brand new book, not looking back in the past - revisiting only if we are trying to avoid making the same mistakes again, ~ but sometimes, mistakes are necessary to bring you closer to the right ones.
Most people see 2020 as the year of survival and many have considered it as a ‘surviving’ year and are glad to be over. The demand of Hope is increasing exponentially in this brand new year, and it’s funny to notice that everyone thinks 2021 is ‘the-year.’
If I could describe 2020 in a single word it would be Accepting. Accepting all the challenges we have been through and starting to learn how to value time more. We see time as just a single word that has quite an important meaning - but it is indeed, can’t be wasted. I’ve shed lots of tears in 2020 and it’s becoming a habit of me to overthink things - love, family, time, work, friends and the list can go on and on. It’s all about the little thoughts that bother me the most until I realized in November, that I’ve learned many things this year. I’ve appreciated my surroundings more, every single step I make matters and it’s ok to mess up sometimes. I’ve revisited the past when my very last relationship ended and I know I’ve completely let go of the hurt and feelings - great memories will be surely remembered, and that’s when I know we really were not meant for each other.
Here goes - 2021. Today is the day I come up with the word Hope as the main expectation of 2021. We might have too much drinks to drink, talked our deep feelings to each other and kissed the right and wrong person at the same time - but sometimes you know if its really right. We make mistakes on wasting the chances that we get, just because we were afraid of the outcomes. For the past few years, I’ve kept on saying ‘if it’s meant to be - it’s meant to be’ without really trusting the words. Today - I know and felt it.
Sometimes the truth is - you just become so lost in translation and you can’t find the right words when it really feels right. I believe things happen for a reason, whether it’s bringing someone closer to you or drives them away. Life itself is a mystery, how people come to your life unannounced or simply how the right one has been in front of you all along.
But today - I let go, I let go if its not meant to be. I am stepping out of the circle and will be waiting by the corner of the street and take chances. Today, I’m gonna seize the day and actually live. I’ll let my wall down if you’re reaching out your hand. Because life after all, can’t be wasted and the clock is ticking.
2021 - you’re just getting interesting.
