unexpected whisper.

Today, life hits me. Life hits me in the mind&heart. It wakes me up from my longest dream.
December, 2020. Who would’ve thought we’re approaching the end of year when all we did for the whole year is null - none. Some things changed our perspective out of desperation. Some turn-around events changed our personality and belief.

Thirst - is a quite dangerous feeling, don’t you think? We are looking for the love we deserve but it seems that the more we tend to find our way out, the darker the pathway is. We tend to fill our hearts half-filled because we are saving the other half for the right one. When we started to fill in drip by drip, it becomes fully empty again because all the magic dusts are poured out and it only becomes a worldly soil.

I’ve tried to pickup the pieces, which way should I go? Should I stay in what I belief in and keep on waiting til the day I’m saved again?

or

should I take the fast - lane and take a chance on a new experience that might turn my life upside down \ not guaranteed in a magical way.

I’m still a girl searching for answer after all these years, waiting to reach to the promise land that she thought she have found when all were broken down.

And turns out, she’s still all alone - left with two choices, not knowing which way to go.