Welcome back.. me :) and we are back to square.. well, supposedly not a square one but being in a completely different relationship in the year of 2025. Another month, another rant.
Honestly, I was planning to unsubscribe my website cause I thought I found my human diary who would understand.. but the question is.. does he? The verdict is.. it’s complicated.
I’ve never been this confused in my whole life. To be questioned, to explain myself why I’ve acted certain way but to be viewed as an invitation for an argument countless of times.. to be.. well, undervalued.
To cry when there’s no more tears left to roll down my cheek, to promise myself to never allow someone to not treat me right but ended up.. here. Is it wrong for me to feel at my lowest and I cried for help but it’s being seen as “you’re just focusing on yourself, have you asked how I feel?” isn’t partners supposed to understand who needs comfort more in a certain situation..? I’ve put issues aside when they needed me the most, but when I’m the one who needed them the most.. suddenly I’m demanding? and I’m not understanding? and when I explained myself I’m the argument starter? Life isn’t fair.
to not being.. gosh i dont even know what im gonna say anymore.